Flashes of my Past...

Went to an old e-mail account I have had since college...
And found an e-mail from an ex's wife - considerably nicer than the original e-mail she'd sent me which, apparently, has been deleted.
And so, because I'm a nut, I do an online search...
And find out they had a miscarriage some years ago...
And I feel bad...
Then I look back at the e-mail and realize it's after the miscarriage...
And that in her e-mail she's telling me that they have a kid (and in her words, not that I would care)...
And she mentions having Lupus.
I then get a bit annoyed.
Not always, but depending on the severity, it can cause death - which she said her's is.
How can you bring a baby into this world knowing you'll likely die????
It just seems very selfish to me is all.