*hyperventilating*
I feel like I'm losing my mind...
It's starting again and I have no control over anything.
I have no faith.
I have no trust.
I have this huge knot in my stomach since he told me.
And now I have to figure out what to do.
I fear that perhaps my reaction will result in him not continuing to tell me things.
That will bother me the most.
I hurt.
My head.
My insides.
Everything.
And all I want to do is cry.
But what good would that do, really?
He doesn't care.
He doesn't care about my feelings in this.
And I think he should.
I'm so confused and so hurt and so sad and so unsure of anything anymore.
It's starting again and I have no control over anything.
I have no faith.
I have no trust.
I have this huge knot in my stomach since he told me.
And now I have to figure out what to do.
I fear that perhaps my reaction will result in him not continuing to tell me things.
That will bother me the most.
I hurt.
My head.
My insides.
Everything.
And all I want to do is cry.
But what good would that do, really?
He doesn't care.
He doesn't care about my feelings in this.
And I think he should.
I'm so confused and so hurt and so sad and so unsure of anything anymore.
posted by Sassy Southern Belle @ 12:54 AM
2 Comments:
At 1:38 PM,
Mr Peacock said…
Oh Sassy..
I am saddened by your post.. I hope you can see a way to deal with it. To not say what you think can also lead to pain internally. I don't know what the issue is.. but to bottle up your opinions and emotions are never a good thing.
hope your feeling better.
At 6:41 PM,
Sassy Southern Belle said…
Thanks.
:)
I'm in the process of trying to deal now and we'll see what happens from here I suppose.
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