THUD….THUD….THUD…..

That would be the sound of my head banging against my desk…..

In my attempt to make the time go by, I just looked at the list of the “deserving” ones this year who will receive a tin of cookies from yours truly…
I swear, I should just open a frickin’ bakery !
Upon printing out this list that I’ve been working on today and tallying up the total number of households/individuals who are to receive my confectionary delights I come up with the grand total (for the moment at least) of…….
45
Yes.
45
How the heck did my list grow so much??????
I mean, I have my family, J’s family, my friends, J’s friends, my co-workers (who I don’t want to maim), J’s co-workers, J’s ex-co-workers….and so on and so forth……
And all that added up totals
45
Do you even KNOW how many frickin’ cookies I’m going to have to make to fill 45 tins?!?!?!?
So, I made a 2nd list…
A list of the different types of cookies/goodies I can make to fill this godforsaken order….
20
Yup
20 items.
So I go online…
And I begin the great search to find new cookies to add to the list…
Cookies that won’t be time consuming and that will meet the standard I’ve come to have when making my holiday cookies…..
And I have, so far, found 4 new recipes to test…
3 for actual cookies….
1 for a powder sugar glaze to go over cut-out cookies….
I’m sure my co-workers will be just “thrilled” with me when I bring in the test batches for them to try !
They always “love” when I bake and bring in my fattening treats in for them ! ! ! !
=0)
The only other hope I have is that my memory is as bad as it’s always been and I’ll go home and look in my recipe database and find MORE cookies I’ve made in the past that I can use.
And, of course, I have to then figure out a timeline that I can adhere to in making all of these cookies….a workable, easy to follow timeline…..

Ideally I’d like to get all batches that need to be sent out the door by the end of the 2nd week of December….
Which gives me a whopping 3 ½ weeks !
I guess I could start at least making the dough that can be refrigerated or frozen this weekend….and vacu-seal it up so it won’t go bad….
Then next weekend is a 4 day weekend….
So maybe I’ll bake Friday thru Sunday and then vacu-seal up those little cookies so they won’t get stale….
Then…
Depending on whether or not 2nd job comes through, I can either work on finishing my baking a few nights a week and then on the weekends, huh???
So maybe I CAN do this….
Granted, I still need to hunt down and buy another 42 tins (I found 3 at Target at lunch today) to fill….
But I guess actually making the cookies overrides the shopping for tins on my list…..

Perhaps I should stock up on Red Bull….
Considering I have rooms in the house to paint, window treatments to design, create and hang and all of these frickin cookies to make…..
Maybe I should just forget about sleeping for the next month or so, huh?
How about that?!?!?!?
Would that work???
Would I have enough time to meet the demands of my cookie craving public and J’s demands of a completed house????
BLAHHHHHHHH ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
How did this turn out to me by life??
How the hell did I get here???
And where’s the next exit because I don’t know if this is the road I want to be on !