So, today I got my MaryKay squared away....
And invested some more of my money in this little venture of mine.
J seems unhappy in that I don't think he approves of how much I've spent thus far - what he doesn't realize is that I wouldn't put in more than I could afford.
Anyway...
Should anyone out in bloggerworld be interested in MaryKay and is in need of a consultant...I have a website through the company for orders - let me know if you are interested and I'll send you the info.
:)

O.k., I'm going to participate in "Self Portrait Tuesday" starting today !

Say Cheese !

What A Host Of Events As Of Late !

First I, the girl who hardly EVER wears make-up, becomes a Mary Kay lady...
Then we made a decision, but I don't want to jinx it, so I'm not going to go into what that is - I already feel it is a doomed hope, so I don't want to make my chances any worse....
Then we had to go to J's family's house tonight to have "cake" for his sister's birthday. YEESH ! Am I glad THAT'S over ! Those people make me SOOOO uncomfortable ! ! ! ! And his sister is SUCH a brat ! At least we didn't have to make it through a dinner with them as well !
And the only thing ANY of them have had to say about the wedding as of tonight is "how are things progressing?" and J asked them "in terms of what? our lives? the house?". This is the FIRST time the step-mother has SEEN me since we got engaged and STILL has said NOTHING in terms of a "congratulations" and to piss me off that much more they are remodeling 2 rooms in their house yet they can't OFFER up ANY money towards the wedding?!?!?!??!?
GGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Fuckers !
I am SOOOO glad we don't have to deal with them very often !

Home Today

Not feeling too great today....
So IMd my boss to say I'd work from home if that was o.k. with him.
He told me to just take a sick day.
I gave him a compromise - I'll call it a sick day and not be online but a couple of times to check into my e-mail to see if anyone needs anything.
The sad thing is that it's all of 9:16 am and I'm ALREADY bored out of my skull !
YIKES !

In A Past Life I Was...

You Were a Lynx

You are a great knower and keeper of secrets. A bit psychic, you can bring out hidden truths.

What Animal Were You In a Past Life?

As Snagged from The Absynthe of Truth...

You Are Olive Green

You are the most real of all the green shades. You're always true to yourself. For you, authenticity and honesty are very important... both in others and yourself. You are grounded and secure. It takes a lot to shake you. People see you as dependable, probably the most dependable person they know.

What Color Green Are You?

My Little Boy....

is not acting right.



I think he's still missing Gollum. In the short time they knew one another they became buddies and there's no way I can explain to him what happened.
Agador has always been the character of our house - and he's always been very loving and the first one to want to snuggle.
He's changed.
He doesn't really let us pet him and he doesn't even lay on the couch anymore - instead he lies on the floor - in much the same way he's lying in this picture.

My poor little love.
I wish there was something I could do for him.

G

is gone...
We had to go to the vet late last night - he was having trouble but was fine by the time we got there
He made it through the night but continued to decline in health
We had a VERY hard decision to make this morning
And though we know it was the right thing to do for him, it doesn't make it hurt any less

Y'all will have to excuse me if I don't post for awhile
But I at least wanted to give an update and thank everyone so very much for their kind thoughts and for their hopes that G would pull through
Unfortunately, it was his time

Not Good

The vet who has been taking care of Gollum this weekend is now pushing for us to put him down
She is, in my opinion, a drama queen and says his health is declining dramatically
I find it interesting that he's doing so terribly poorly between Friday and today
When I saw where he was being kept I could understand why he couldn't help but vomit up his food
He's surrounded by dogs - something he's never seen before
He's scared to death
When we asked that he be moved to the cat ward the vet refused
I DO NOT want to have to put him down
I KNOW that if he were in a quieter environment he'd be doing better
My poor boy
I feel sick to my stomach and cannot stop crying
Tomorrow J is talking to the head vet about all of this
He got involved today when the drama vet started talking putting him down to me
I called him and he came right to the vet to deal with her
As of now, according to J, he is the primary on this as he feels I'm being yanked around and he, like me, doesn't like the "vibe" of this weekend's vet
I just hope tomorrow isn't too late for him

WHY?
WHY is this happening?????
And WHAT is wrong with my vet's office?!?!??!

I am about to KNOCK these vets' heads together ! ! !

I SWEAR !
I get a different opinion depending on the vet I'm talking to.
They have a roatation so there's a different vet taking care of Gollum every day.
NONE of them f-ing TALK to each other ! ! ! !
Yesterday the one on duty suggested we get him an ultrasound.
I told her that the head vet already had that done and that it came back clean !
She was like "I don't see any results here" to which I responded that the head vet told me that he spoke with the lab and they verbally gave him the information b/c the report hadn't been sent back yet !
UGH ! ! ! ! !
And, not for nothing, but the lab probably isn't open on a SATURDAY so WHY would you get the results back before Monday?!?!??!?!
I was nearly arguing with her yesterday over the phone in that she was babbling about how his one count is up - and was trying to make me alarmed about that fact.
I told her that the head vet had told me about that already and said that it was normal for that to happen.
One vet said he has a "Good" chance of recovery.
What they say he has - I've done my research - most cats have a 90% recovery rate from.
This one yesterday said that "Once they go jaundice they don't always come back" and was trying to suggest that he had a pre-existing liver condition and that he doesn't have what they initially said he has ! ! !
I explained to her that he NEVER ate well when he came to us and that this is what triggered his body to start fasting and living off his fat stores.
I want to smack this vet upside the head at this point ! ! ! !
She claims to have "read his chart" yet knows NOTHING about him ! ! ! !
He was hiding in his litter box yesterday morning and covered in his own pee b/c they couldn't wash him yet since they were scared he'd start throwing up again if they bathed him too soon after he'd eaten.
Yet, my spending 1 1/2 hours there got him out of the litter box, lying on the bedding, on his SIDE, and purring like a crazy kitty.
I want to get ALL of these idiotic vets into ONE ROOM and MAKE THEM TALK TO EACH OTHER before coming back to me with a prognosis ! ! ! !
I'm already stressed enough by the situation - this is just making it WORSE.

Rough Night

G had a VERY rough night last night
He apparently was throwing up everything they fed him
NOT GOOD
He had a blood test this morning
I shall get the results at 2:00
As of this morning he was holding down his food
But he was also hiding in his litter box and, because he peed in there and then layed in it, he was covered in pee
They couldn't wash him yet because he'd just eaten and they were scared to jostle him because it might cause him to start throwing up again
(SIGH)
This is worse than I thought it was going to be
Though during my 1 1/2 hour visit, he did come out of the litter box on his own and lay down on the bedding and was purring and relaxing
If nothing else he was at least put at ease while I was there
If I didn't have that Cat Theater event tonight I'd be with him right now
But, alas, I have to wait until I get home tonight to visit him again
I only hope that his blood test comes back with good news
He is still jaundice as of now
Possibly more than he was before
I, for the first time, am having to face the fact that he may not come out of this
If there is no hope, I have to be fair to him
He is terribly uncomfortable and scared to death
And if he has no hope I cannot continue to draw this out for him
The dignity he had is nearly gone
He is now shaved on his belly, all the way around his neck, his hind leg and his front paw
He is but patches of fur
And, with his lying in his own pee this morning, I know that's not any way an animal would want to be (albeight temporary)
(shakes head)
I just don't know
I can only hope that, though I must prepare myself for the worst, that I won't have to go down that path with him

More on the G...

2 of his 3 counts are down now which is EXCELLENT
He had an ultrasound today which came back clean - no cancer
I visited him this morning and he was SOOOO happy to have me there with him
It just about killed me to have to leave to go to work - when he saw the tech come back in to get him from me he scooted over so that he was plastered against my stomach as if to say "PLEASE ! ! ! NO ! ! !"
My poor boy
His neck is shaved and with that tube coming out of him....it was not easy to see him as he is now
He did look a lot better today over all, I will say that...
His coat is fuller and his haunches seem to be filling back in
And I did some research on what he has - apparently he has a 90% chance of recovery which makes me very happy
I'll be back to visit him later tonight - I'm hoping he continues to do well

Update

He made it through the night...

and now, as the vet put it, it's a "waiting game" to see if he pulls through the rest of it.
He came through surgery o.k. and he's currently on 2 antibiotics specifically for his liver and is, thus far, responding well to being fed through the tube.
He's being fed every 3 hours and they will keep him in intensive care throughout his stay with them.
Tonight J and I will go visit him to check in and see how he's doing.
I don't know that I won't have a big reaction when I see him...
I think back to when we went to go see him the night after his neuter/declaw/dental work and it tore me up to see his legs wrapped and that he was so out of it and sad looking.
Yesterday the vet had to about tear him away from me - he was so tightly curled and closely clinging that it killed me to have to be separated from him...and he had this sad look on his face as he was taken out of the room.
* sigh *
I'm sure I'll update tonight after my visit.
But that's where he's at as of now...

As Snagged from The Absynthe of Truth...

Something silly to distract my mind....

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My Darling....

My dearest is in intensive care at the vet.....



I was there for 2 1/2 hours this afternoon...
And it was determined that his liver was shutting down and he had to be admitted immediately if his life was to be saved.
Tonight they will be installing a feeding tube into his neck.
I am awaiting a call from the vet to let me know he made it through that surgery...
He will be in intensive care for 3-6 days - being fed through that tube.
And when he comes home I will have to continue to feed him through that tube for some time until he decides to eat on his own.
I am very lucky in that my job will allow me to work from home and that I have some vacation days I can take when he comes home as he will require feedings 4 times per day through that tube.
I was a mess at the vet - crying at the very thought that this is somehow my fault.
I talked to the vet and they said it could've been his change in location that triggered him to stop eating...which, in turn, is what's shutting down his liver.
I am now drinking.
It's the only thing I can think to do otherwise I may end up crying nonstop all night.
My boy.
The staff is getting to know me and have promised to visit him often throughout the day because I explained that I would be visiting him at nights as I work 1 hour away and have to be in the office building up to what will have to be an adjusted schedule.
Please, everyone who reads this, send good thoughts Gollum's way.
He needs all of the good energy he can get right now.
The next few days are critical to his survival.

Hi Ho, Hi Ho...

it's back to the vet we go !

Wait...
Why am I singing?
This isn't a GOOD thing ! ! ! ! !

My dear Gollum must go back in today for a check.
He's not eaten since coming home on Friday and he hasn't used his litter box either.
I called them today and told them what was going on and they said he needed to get in there asap.
I just bailed him out on Friday !
How much MORE is this going to cost?!?!??!
UGH.
I know he's happier now that he's home so WHY oh WHY won't he eat?!?!??!?!